Decision Made!


The Decision is Made …

And the car I have chosen is…(play the music link above please…)…

The Audi A6 Allroad Estate…generic_image.img

Now, don’t you feel so much better for knowing that? I know I do. No, really, I DO!!! I was beginning to get a headache, stressing about which car to chose before my beloved Doris finally gave up on me! Him Indoors and I almost had a disagreement about it over the phone, and we hardly ever do that!

I have test driven Lexus, Audi and Mercedes…doesn’t seem a lot but those were the makes I had focused on. The Mercedes guy was very helpful, letting me rock up and test drive on spec, but he blew it with his mildly patronising attitude about when would my husband be able to come in and see the car…yes, I want to discuss it and agree with Him, but the final decision is MINE! Luckily that attitude is on the way out. I won’t tell you the restraint I had to use when he tried to show me how to use their website too!!!!

SO, next week I take possession of my very first brand new car. Ever! I always said it made more sense to get mildly used ones, but the deal was just too good, and He agreed with me ( sensible chap). I will be able to collect our son from his second knee operation in The New Beast and drive him him home in comfort; Audrey (just trying he name out here) will look good on the drive when we have guests fro dinner that Saturday…yes, I AM that shallow, get over it! I just hope the trip to the supermarket won’t be too traumatic, the first time trying to park without my beloved parking camera! Well, you can’t have everything!

Just so long as I can get Radio 4 Extra on the DAB radio…

Wish me luck…


Car Update

I am getting more confused, not clearer-minded! I asking Him, on the way to the station this morning, what we had decided, and what did we do next…ie “when are you going to buy me the new car” (read that in spoilt brat voice!)

Then I got an email asking me if I was really certain, and why not look at the Lexus cars again!!!! ARRRGH!!!!

So I am booked in to look at both the RX 450 hybrid, and the new NX hybrid this afternoon. As it is disgusting weather it will be a good test for them….come to think of it, it was snowing when we first went out in Doris on a test drive!

Have you gathered by now I like to do things when I’ve decide, and not wait; Impulse Girl, that’s me! even at 55¾! For me it’s like buying houses…when you walk in, you KNOW! If Hubby had said on Saturday “we’ll have it” I’d have been fine…weeeelllll…

You see, I don’t want to have to wait for an engine to heat up (diesel) meaning you can’t do short trips if the weather is crap and I need something from the shop a mile away…stop yelling “Woose” at me! (incidentally, I can’t find the definition/spelling of this word!) I do care about the environment, and I do think the Hybrid is the way to go apart from totally electric, which a friend’s hubby is going for. i love driving, do quite a few miles each year, am short so love being high up…

oh heck! Let’s see what this afternoon’s test drives bring!

Laters, Dudes!


The BIG Question!



I am contemplating one of the biggest Questions I have been faced with for the last 10 years…

No,its not “is there Life after Death” or any of those REALLY big Questions! Its…

are you ready?…

DO I chose an Audi A6 Quatro or another Lexus RX as my next car?

What do you mean, ” so what?”? This is HUGE for me! We don’t change our cars very often, and I have had Doris for 10 years, and she and I have done over 118,000 miles together…oh, wait 13,000 of those were not with me! But you get my meaning. The car I decide to buy now will take us into retirement, hopefully into Grandparenthood, on golfing holidays, skiing holidays, and anything else I decide to try!

I managed to get Him Indoors over to the Audi garage to test drive an A4 yesterday, and we both decided it was not for us – I have been spoilt by my Lexus, which came with so many things as standard, and is very luxurious inside – well, she was, but after 10 years of school trips, dog trips, golf etc I am sure you can imagine the odd marks we have. He then asked to look at the A6, and we both loved it! I haven’t yet got Him to look at the new Lexus NX  and I have a feeling I never will. I think he is sold on The Audi A6! SO much so he is even contemplating buying a brand new car, which we NEVER DO!!!!

One of my main thoughts that is worrying me is diesel fuel. I have been hearing things about how it is not as good for the environment as “they” thought, and it may be taxed/phased out in the future. The Audi we would get would be diesel because of the miles I drive each year. I want to look at the hybrid/petrol fuel consumption of the Lexus regarding this new car.

One thing that He loved was the idea of having to service the Audi less than the Lexus. He is, of course and rightly, focusing on the cost-saving bits of the Audi compared with the Lexus.

The more I type about this the more I catch myself thinking Audi, and catching sight of the brochure just to my left…It has a better turning lock than the Lexus…

Hm! I think I’d better walk The Hound before the rain comes this afternoon, and think more about it as I tramp.


If you have any thoughts…let me know!


What was I about to say?

I sat down and logged on here with lots I wanted to say…it took time to get connected with this broadband link ( we live 3 miles form the exchange and the line goes through trees!) and now I can’t remember what I was going to type!!! This is happening more and more in my speech too – I have word blindness every now and then. The family think this is very funny, but it worries me.

I was looking at the wing mirror yesterday and couldn’t think what it was called…Do you ever have this?

I assume it is a bit to do with my age, but perhaps more to do with the lack of using my brain for socialising, or reading – I have been listening to Audiobooks more and more lately, especially as I need to tidy the house! This house is full of books of all sorts; most I have read but there are a few that I have bought, put to one side, and forgotten. I used to put them in a pile beside my bed, but then they got covered with the days’ detritus, so that didn’t work!

Well, today I am going to make sure I speak to friends, and after more tidying up, I WILL sit down and read a book…it may not be a great work of literature ( I have never read and Dickens…don’t hate me!) but at least my brain will be working1

So, until I remember what it was I was going to tell you … have a great…um..thingy…DAY!


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The Circle of Life

How have you been?

It has been a full four weeks of emotions here, with a Birth, a Death and a Marriage weaved into the usual meeting of strangers and friends.

It started with the birth of a beautiful girl to my husband’s youngest niece…what is that relationship with us called? Grand- niece? It was a lovely easy birth with her sister as her birth partner. We got to meet Ruby at the family wedding ,and I got my fill of couples…but I’m jumping ahead!

Then came that awful news from Ann about her terminal cancer.

The following week we went up to Hoylake for The Open, met up with old friends, met new ones. I played golf with some of the wives…we all survived! Hubby and I managed a couple of evening meals alone which was wonderful; we met up with his family briefly for a meal too.

The week went smoothly and we flew off to the South of France for a complete rest for Hubby, and some precious time alone together. It was a little bit of France we hadn’t explored right next to on ewe know well, so we could dip in and out of the different atmospheres as we wanted. It included a fab trip to Cannes Hermes shop to get Hubby’s birthday present of a pocket handkerchief for his suits..oh, ok, so I got a scarf too (Teehee!) and some perfume, but did you honestly think I could go in there & not?? I do relies I have a fab Hubby!!

Then home for a whirlwind week.

It began with a lovely meeting at Hampton Court with an old friend about to fly back to Australia. We mixed history with gossip and news, enjoyed the modern showings of historical figures and places, and caught up.

The following day I drove to Gloucester to say an official Goodbye to my school friend. I met up with our third wheel, Mary and her husband briefly before we found some of the few free seats in the church. It was wonderful how many folks’ lives Ann touched. Yes, it was sad, yes I had a good chat with old friends, but yes – it has brought up some huge questions for me about Faith, Spiritual life etc. I thought I had come to terms with Death etc, but no…a different blog perhaps.

Then Thursday Son and I drove back up to Liverpool for the Family Wedding! Our middle niece married her lovely man with her son as the ring bearer and her daughter one of the bridesmaids. Lorna looked so beautiful, and Scott was very handsome and ‘together’ – we were very impressed. I think they will have a long and happy life together.

As with all family meetings there are good bits and bad, news and gossip, but i file most of my time cuddling the new grand- niece, Ruby!! She is so small and bright! Already holding her head up at 4 weeks old!!! and her fingers and toes are so long! No, I’m not in a rush to be a grandmother, but it gave me a quick taste of it! Son, I can wait!

Now, life is getting back to normal. The piles of washing and ironing have diminished, the garden has been stared at crossly and will be dragged back into shape slowly but surely. Nutrition-wise I need to detox and get back to my healthy living…am off to the nutritionist in a min…eeek, I must get going!

SO folks. All life in a few moments. in the midst of death there is life, and in life there is death. There is always a renewal going on somewhere, to remind us that nothing lasts for ever, good or bad. SO I’m taking a deep great here, counting my blessings, allowing myself to feel both the pain and the joy of each day; and moving forward.

May your day be filled with blessings.



The Power of Shavasana (The Corpse Pose)

It seems a long time since I posted anything about my yoga. In fact it’s a long time since I managed a practice at home! I have no idea why, but I have found a fab teacher in Andrea at The Yoga School on The Ridge at Hastings.

This morning I really needed my Yoga. if you have read my previous post you will know some very deep emotions have been brought to the surface following some dreadful news. The news has brought up feelings of grief from somewhere deep inside, that I thought had subsided.

After a wonderful practice where we ends dup with our legs posed weightless in the air we prepared for Shavasana, and I brought my legs down with the soles of my feet together and my knees falling apart. I think this is a pose which helps release emotions, and is one that is almost a default for me. Andrea asked me if I would like to rest in this position for Shavasana instead of my usual one with a wedge under my legs, as I looked so settled. She put a bolster either side of me under my knees to make sure there was not too much of a stretch getting in the way of my mind, warm pads on my palms, on my stomach and over my feet, a pillow under my head, and a blanket over me. We settled into the pose.

At first I found it difficult to let go, but then, as my breathing slowed and deepened, I suddenly felt this huge weight lift off my chest, almost pulling me up; there was this bright light coming towards me, and in the centre was an eye shape. All sadness seemed to go, and I felt happy. I think I was smiling.

Then I coughed and normality resumed…well, almost. The sadness I had brought with me no longer seemed trapped inside. After the class Andrea spoke to me and suddenly I was crying, telling her about my friend, about my daughter, my family! We talked for an hour, and shared our griefs. She told me off when I tried to apologise for holding her back, bless her.

Now, although I am still sad ( not strong enough a word) about my friend, I feel I have been given permission to acknowledge that I have feelings of grief about her; that it has brought up feelings of grief about my daughter; that I am different from others who don’t have these griefs. I will not bottle them up any more.

Bit of a shame it’s called The Corpse pose tho!!




hugging_kittensSometimes the World serves up a mug of pain instead of a glass of champagne.

A couple of days ago I had a call from an old school friend who I haven’t seen in a while, but always reconnect with instantly – we went through quite a lot at boarding school, forming a trio with another friend of “Only Children”. If you are not an Only Child it can be difficult to understand, in the same we we don’t get your relationship with your siblings! (I used to dream of having an older brother who would look after me..yes, I realise he probably wouldn’t have now, but in my dream he would introduce me to all his very handsome friends!…well, I used to day-dream a lot!! )

I thought this call was just a catch-up, and in a way it was. My wonderfully strong friend had called me personally to tell me she has only a couple of months left to live.

She has survived a bad session of breast cancer which went to her lymph nodes over a decade ago, has brought up 3 wonderful children, worked for breast-feeding charities, is a very strong member of her church, and now has been struck by primary pancreatic cancer which has spread to the liver. She sounded so strong and matter-of-fact on the phone. She brought me up to speed, and we reminised about our lives, school, children, husbands.

An hour or so later, shell-shocked, and trying not to cry on the phone for her, we thanked each other for being friends, and I said “ok, bye”….and we hung up! And I immediately realised what I had said!!!! I cried, I walked round the house ( I was alone as both men were in London as per), then called our third friend, who was out. I left a message for my husband on his mobile as he never answers it in the evening, grabbed my camera and took the dog down the farm track to watch the sunset.

Going through my mind was how casual my “Bye” had been to her. I will always be grateful to her for having the courage to call me herself, and then I just casually finished the call! Now, I know I can call her back and tell her all  this, but would it help her? I will call her anyway, and we “chat” on Facebook and Twitter, but that moment has passed!

I wonder if I will have the chance to hug her again and say goodbye properly, but if I don’t I know she understands how important she is in my life.

SO, to those of you who don’t even say Goodbye when you hang up the phone ( something that REALLY gets my goat!), think on. It only takes a second.


And to my wonderful friend I will not say Goodbye yet, as I know we shall meet again either in this World, or the next. I love you.



Go With The Flow

Good  morning, is your day planned? Do you know what you have got to do today, what you can achieve? I had a great day planned…Art in the morning as it’s Tuesday, and gardening this afternoon…well, IN the garden anyway. ( for that read sunbathing!)

Last night I looked at my Angel cards and one of them was Flow…now I know why! My wonderful Tech guy has decided to come to sort out my broadband problems today instead of tomorrow, bless him. Unluckily for him he has had a puncture, but is still coming here from Ipswich, which is at least 100 miles away. I know, I know, there are peeps nearer who could sort it out, but this guy I trust, and we normally can fix things remotely. This time I need hardwear ( not to mention a few little knickknacks for my new baby!!) to ensure that my home network works, and we can offer free Wifi in my holiday cottage as advertised. Whilst he is fixing problems I’ll get him to give me a quick lesson on Baby for anything I am not sure about/don’t know…tricks of the trade stuff.

SO, I will go with the flow, change my plans without getting cross about it. I will be missing the chance to defeat a terrible drawing I was stuck on in art ( it’s the last lesson of the term) for the first time, but hey – I have learned a great deal in the process, which is what it’s all about. I will be able to help my cleaner cope with all the dust and mess in the drawing room where we’ve just had new windows put in.(..I have done quite a lot already in my defence!!) A problem will be sorted which is always great.

So as my Manga ( grandma) always said “Count your blessings” and I will…it could take me all day!



The Bins! Love Them or Hate them…

Which are you? A Lover or Hater of the bins?

You can guess which I am from this blog!!!!!

I have just emptied the kitchen bin bag, putting it in the big black wheelie bin to discover that the window men had just dumped their rubbish from Friday night into it without a black bag!!!! GRRRRRRRR!!!!!! in fact…(*^$^$%£&^%(*^&(^£%%$^%*^(

When I was little it was always my father’s job to empty the bins, as well as polish our shoes on Sunday evening. Our lives are too different now, and it is left to whoever finds the bin full – which in reality means me as the Men are good at not seeing that it’s full!

Add to this the difference in every borough and county bin-emptying system, and you get bad bin etiquette! Oh for the days when it was all the same, and simple, and clean!!

And being the coward I am, I will say nothing to the chap that is here, and clean it up myself, as I did last week after the painters had done the same thing! I will then put a reminder up in my kitchen to myself to ask the next lot of builders NOT to do the same!!!!

Shame I have to.


New Week, New Technology

Morning. It is Monday, the start of the week for most people, and the sky is almost clear of clouds as I look out into my garden. It rained in the night, saving me from watering before breakfast, and allowing me to type this on my new laptop.

This new bit of technology has been long-coming for me, and produced very conflicting emotions. The main reason for buying it…well, one of the main reasons, was to be able to edit my photos not he fly, or at least wherever I am, and be able to send them off to the teacher even if I have no broadband here!!!

Last Sunday night saw me awake until well after midnight sending raw pics to our Photo club teacher over my mobile account as the phone line had died! usually I convert them into Jpegs with LightRoom, rename them, and put a little comment with each. None of this was possible due to ending to download LightRoom again onto my new hard drive on the main computer (which everyone uses). Oh the Frustrations!!! i’m surprised none of you heard me yelling!

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SOOOO, I plucked up courage and looked at refurbished laptops on the Apple site…and looked, and cogitated, and argued with myself. I checked my bank balance…it could be done, but SHOULD it be done? It’s one of the most expensive etchings I have ever bought myself. (The last huge outlay was must first sound system with my first bonus in the ’80’s)

Being old-fashioned I wasted to talk to a human about it, and spoke to a lovely Irish lady who went through all the specs, the pros, the cons, and finally she said I deserved it!

Of course, she has no idea whether I do or not. I’m not too sure I do deserve it, but it is too late now!! I went ahead, despite having to phone my bank to assure them it was me trying to spend so much money with Apple, not a fraudster. In fact Apple called me back after that …the cynical amongst us will say they wanted my sale; the rest will do what I did, be thankful, and fork over the dosh!!

SO, this blog is brought to you care of my MacBook Pro, and a very dodgy broadband connection…which is a whole other blog!


Oh, What a Night!

And before you lot start saying “lucky Girl”, it wasn’t that type of night!

This weekend our phone line died. Which meant no broadband. Sunday might night was the deadline for this month’s Photography assignment, and as per I was leaving it all till the last moment…note to self, do it before the weekend next month!

I suspect it is all my fault, but don’t tell the phone company! We have a pressure washer, and the front door step needed hosing down after the door had been painted…getting the picture? The wiring is old, and I assume water has got into the line. So now when you pick up the phone it is like someone else is on the line…nothing…not even have breathing.

On the plus side we might get better broadband if they put in a new line ( she said fingers crossed)

Add on to that a flat battery in my car from last Wednesday night (I think) when I left the keys in it…took me ages to find them too!!

So, when Son returned from the supermarket trip, and before he disappears up to London, we will jump start my trusty, if dusty, steed and I will go on a long journey to recharge my batteries….in both senses!

I have decided to go to Lewis in East Sussex as I haven’t been for decades! It is the county’s administrative centre, plus has loads to see and do. I didn’t know that .anne of Cleaves lived there, for example. Also the re is a shop of Polish Pottery that I keep seeing at the Country Living Fair and have always wanted to look at some more (ok, so I want to buy some too!)

I will make sure I have my AA card with me incase the car doesn’t start again when I return home though, as I’m not too sure I trust it…the battery. Googling how long it takes to recharge just gives you loads of different advice form “forget it, & get a new battery” to ” just drive for over 20minutes” It also depends on your car, the age of it and the age of the battery.
So, here’s to a better day after a very short night of brain fizzing; to new sights, sounds and discoveries.
I hope your days go well too.


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My First Photography Club Assigment

I must try to use smaller titles than this!

As you may know I have joined a PC ( photo club) that meets in a pub ( where else!) once a month and we are given an assignment by Our Leader (photographer and teacher Andrew Newson ). Our first one was Movement.


I took to this one almost immediately as it meant I could explore doing blurry images on purpose instead of the usual accidental ones! The first thing I had to do tho was find the tripod…”Easily done, surely?” you ask? You don’t know me very well, do you! I had to give up and buy a new one in the end!!!


I really enjoyed finding new ways to get the countryside to blur…walking along holding the camera with a slow shutter speed…lost? So was I and probably still am, to be honest!


This is such a far cry form the good old Point and Shoot that I have loved. I am so used to doing the instant picture that I am still not very strong at setting the shot up. I need to practice on the delayed shot, using the timer as I still manage to get camera wobble on a tripod!


Anyway, long story short before you all go off for a coffee… one of my pictures was Commended and blown up ( to a larger size, not explosively!). I was so amazed, and thrilled! Little L inside was jumping up and down screaming “I WON, I WON” although it is Not, I repeat, NOT a competition, and I am in no way competitive!!! ( did you buy that?)

And here is that picture…P1050785The next assignment is to chose an iconic photographer and shoot in his/her style… I have spent years finding out what my style is, so this is a bit tricky…but I have chosen Elliott Erwitt.

Why? Because of his attitude of just take your camera out, wander around, and take pictures!

I am sure there is more to it than that, but we shall see.

I want to do black and white street scenes in London, Rye and Hastings, so we shall see what I come up with!