I am…



Morning. I am starting the day with a little more force than usual.

I have fed the pets, everyone has been out and all have safely come in, and here I am chatting to you.

Why? I got woken at 4.20 this morning by a hot flush. Not unusual as I had had some Cadbury’s chocolate yesterday, and sugar is my trigger. So, I listened to an Audio Book whilst dozing until Midweek Motivation by Jayne M Cox came into my inbox as it does every Wednesday. here’s the link…http://us2.campaign-archive2.com/?u=2616f02d31b1e827414add1cb&id=417b5d6fd2&e=4227bc274b

This one is a Ted talk about Faking It Until It’s Real…something I do often on Twitter – now, stop yelling at me! I tweet happiness and positivity because who wants to read about a moping, sado?! I don’t consider it lying unless its lying to myself, and it makes me feel better, it really does! I Fake It!

So, when everyone started to wake up on Twitter etc I put on the light, my dressing gown, and came down here, and I have done my power stance…outside! Looking up at the stars, swilling my coconut oil in my mouth, loving the odd twinkling star, and amazed I can do that in November…but I am digressing!

Today I am going to fake being an organised, energetic, lively, thin person…those who know me will know at least one of those is not real. And I can hear Jayne already yelling at me! I CAN be those things, but I find it easy to slip into the mindset of the fat, lazy, detached, TV slob. Just being honest here – you can switch off anytime if you are bored

I USED to be the former, when I was younger, a working mum, and even after we moved to the country and I gave up work to look after the kids ( something I never regret!). I can be those things again, I just need the motivation – and I don’t think I’m alone here! It’s only going to come from me!

I even started to fill out the forms for these 2 wonder pills that make you lose stones in a month…mainly for skiing after Christmas…as they say you don’t lose energy etc. I will ask my nutritionist first ( a 24 year old beauty!) who will talk me out of it, at least I’m assuming she will…

Anyway, back to the Fake it to Make it thought…It has hit me at just the right time. My mind feels as if it is disintegrating, I forget words very easily, and listening to others at Art yesterday I realised I am wasting my life at the moment. One of the ladies, who was a high-powered school teacher, is taking an Open university course in the History of Art. What am I doing? Nothing!

SO…from today I am going to fake being an interesting, intelligent, engaged, organised, self-disciplined, woman who knows her own mind. It won’t hurt to drink a lot more water and eat less sugar which is half the problem right there! I used to be all these things, and as I am not about to pop my clogs any time soon, I WILL be again!

Another thought just comes to me as I get ready to sign off…talking to Hubby recently I said how I hate to be judged (my holiday cottage had its inspection on Monday – 4 stars again!) – I think I know who is my biggest Judge…me.

Go be fabulous, folks! You know you can!



Pump Up The Volume…please

Yes, I am asking for the volume to be turned up …on the Little Miracle!

I have, I think, got used to using my LM, and now there are situations where I really would like more volume. Certainly not in the cinema earlier this week whilst watching Interstellar…a fab film, btw! I came away wanting to go into space asap…never going to happen sadly! However there have been a couple of days when either in a restaurant or listening to the car radio when i could have done with more volume.

This hearing aid is not the type you can fiddle with – it is set up by a computer by the expert, and when it was first set up he did say most people come back asking for more.

The other morning, sitting in the kitchen over a cuppa and the computer I became aware of the ticking of the clock…something I have been missing but didn’t realise. It is such a peaceful sound, I just stopped to listen for a while.

All of this makes me think of my mother, who was deaf from the age of 8 following hooping cough. What she had gone through – the frustration, missing the little things…it just makes me admire her; and perhaps gives me a little more understanding of what drove her. I am a little sad that I can’t share this experience with her.

SO, in a couple of weeks, I go back to The Expert and I will be asking for more volume!



It DOES make a difference!

I’m sitting in my kitchen watching breakfast TV, sipping a herbal tea ( I’ve actually run out of  milk!), a purring cat on my lap – just, he’s slipping as I type – and I’ve NOT got my hearing aid in…and it is different!

Occasionally yesterday I wasn’t sure if the Little Miracle was working or not. I’d take it out and turn it off and on just to check. When I put it in my ear after turning it on I can hear some chimes that sound rather like those on a station platform, and I almost expect to hear the announcement that the next train will be for… I am taking this as the sign that my brain is very quickly getting used to hearing through both ears again. Who thought I’d get it retrained so easily?! Teehee!

I do keep touching it, making sure it is in properly…I went for a dog walk with it in, and as it started to rain I put my hood up, and just caught it falling out. The sound of the rain drops falling on the hood was amazing! It reminded me of sitting in my pushchair as a toddler feeling warm and safe whilst my poor old mum pushed me home! Very evocative! I will start yoga with it in and see what happens today. Must remember to wear trousers with a pocket tho! And to put it on my house insurance!!!

So, I’m off to shower and then put the LM (Little Miracle) in and start the wonder all over again. I’m sending a huge grateful thanks to the inventors and manufacturers of this creation! I wish my mother had had such a wonderful one!

L x

What’s that noise???

It’s was momentous day yesterday! I had just been terrified in the supermarket by a huge, unidentified noise as I was on the phone to Son!!! A roaring, rushing, metallic sound. I spun round, telling Son that there was something going on…

And there, round the corner, came the metal cage that the supermarket workers transport lots of boxes in!!! Who knew they were so loud??

Yes, you’ve guessed it, I have finally got my hearing aid! Whoop, Whoop!  You can’t imagine the difference it makes…the noise of the tapping as I type, the rustle of pages turning, I seem to breathe rather loudly too! The TV doesn’t have to be up so loud now, which will please the men in the family…but hopefully I shall also hear them when they are muttering together on the sofa!! HA!

This miracle is rather small, and fits inside my ear Photo on 03-11-2014 at 18.33It comes with a full kit of brushes and whistles to keep it clean and in working order, in a lovely black crash-proof box… I wonder if they have been watching me? ( and looking at this photograph I can see the odd wisdom hair showing!)

The down side is A) The cost (£££), and B) It goes through batteries every 4 days! But it is a wonderful HiFi system, so it will be worth it…Must remember to put in a standing order with Amazon!

I tested my hearing last night by watching one of the Alien films…well, it is that time of year… and we didn’t have to have it blasting out so much the furniture shook, so it’s worth it!

On a serious note, I am lucky that I grew up with a mum with lots of different sized hearing aids over the years, so this little thing will be no problem to wear. I do wonder if it is going to make me feel slightly older. As it is I seem to be looking older these days…must drink more water!

I’ll let you knowhow I get on…so far I’m loving it!

L x

Can you hear me?

imagesRemember I told you I’m getting a hearing aid?

I am, aged 55 ¾, suffering form 70% hearing loss in my right ear after an ear infection 5 years ago. It has steadily got worse, so the consultant sent me off to a hearing centre near us, where I was re-tested in a fab enclosed chair with all those knobbly bits on the walls that remind me of the insides of an egg carton.

I was then injected in the ear with gunk to make a mould of my inner ear…I wish I had a picture to show you – I’m hoping to be allowed to have a copy of it to put in my china cabinet, it fascinates me that much!

Sadly when I went to the fitting of the hearing aid the computer told us there was too much “leakage” of sound so it had to go back to be remade. I can’t tell you how upset I felt. I had just heard full sound on both sides of my head for the first time in years, and I was astounded at the difference. Then to be told I couldn’t take the hearing aid with me was a bit of a blow!

Worse was to come ….on Friday a very apologetic lady called me to say that between the makers and the delivery service my hearing aid has been lost!!! I could have gone ballistic, but what would the point be? It wasn’t that person’s fault…we had a laugh over it, and she has promised to call me the minute it arrives – even if it has to be remade. It’s amazing how many puns can be made over not hearing something…I’m waiting to hear from them!

For the moment I still feel lopsided, and have to cup my good ear towards whoever is speaking in a noisy environment, but soon I shall hear EVERYHING!  You have been warned! Teehee!

Watch this space!


Its Monday Again

True, I know, it comes every week! Some people find it the worst day of the week, others find it a great day – a new start, a chance to get things done, start new projects; for house folks its the time to get the house straight after the weekend.

For me this week Monday brings a chance to remind myself that I am not as much of a klutz as I think I am! We had a dinner party for the golf club board, wives as well thankfully! I had panicked over the food, but managed to not poison anyone. The food came roughly on time, the puddings, made by a friend, were fab, and the guests were very well behaved…ie great conversationists, and made me feel a great hostess. Well done Ladies and Gents!

We all know that practice makes perfect and if we entertained more I wouldn’t get in such a panic! Hm, me thinks we may be grumpy hermits! Well, one excuse is Hubby works so hard, or is travelling or, naturally, on the golf course!  No, I’m not going to put this on a New Year’s Resolution List!! Those things never get done!

SO, today the sun is shining on our part of the UK, the cottage guests are ready to depart, and I have a pile of washing and ironing to keep me going all afternoon…this morning I’ll hit the supermarket to stock up on fresh, healthy food for home made soups etc…oh, who is sounding like a Domestic Goddess? And don’t think I can’t hear you sniggering out there! IT WILL GET DONE!!

Righty, I’m off in my new beast to cruse the country roads towards Tummy Heaven….ok, “going shopping”…honestly, I try to bring poetry into you lives…

Have a great week folks!

L x P1090767

What a Week!

Its Friday morning, and per usual, I have the Cottage changeover about to happen. Another lovely couple have had a great week relaxing, despite the weather. I love that feeling I get when I know my customers have enjoyed them selves and another couple are coming for more of the same in a few hours.

This week has been a full one, and so far has left me feeling more confident…thank goodness!

Tuesday was a REALLY full day. Art was cut short so I could go to the garage to pick up my new car. OH BOY!!!! If you are not into cars you just won’t understand…She is a Black Beauty inside and out. No frills, just the basic model, but Audi can pay me to do an advert on how brill the basic model is these days! I am having to get used to the stop/start thing, where the engine shuts off when you are in traffic or at lights…very useful and appeals to my “watch out for the environment” bit. I am loving the hands-free ability to call folks safely! That was really useful on my way from the garage to the hospital to pick up Son from his second knee op.

It was only a Tuesday but some bits of the journey were bad – traffic jams and roadworks; me clutching the steering wheel tightly as I wasn’t used to the car yet. She got my there by 6-ish having left Eastbourne about 3-ish.

Son and I were so relieved when the surgeon came to see him, showed him the photos of inside his knee, before and after shots. He certainly needed this op, and has been told there should be no reason why he can’t ski again! WOOHOOs all round.

Sadly we didn’t get away from Harrow until 10pm. With a well-needed stop off for some refreshment…well, I say refreshment. I am NEVER going to have a McDonalds’ beef burger every again, but it was the only thing open at midnight! We got home after 1am.  Bed by 1.30 and I was out like a light!

Since then I have “had to” do a few trips in the car, to get various things for a V important dinner on Saturday night…and stopped off at a friend’s house to show off! She is far more of a petrol head than me and kept asking Qs I had no idea of the answers! She is threatening to give me a quiz next time she sees me!! I’m going to have to read the handbook!

So off to clean the cottage now, and prep it for the new guests; then try to decide what I can make the day before so that I’m not in a panic tomorrow!!!

Have a great day folks, and smile at strangers! And welcome to my new followers!!





Decision Made!


The Decision is Made …

And the car I have chosen is…(play the music link above please…)…

The Audi A6 Allroad Estate…generic_image.img

Now, don’t you feel so much better for knowing that? I know I do. No, really, I DO!!! I was beginning to get a headache, stressing about which car to chose before my beloved Doris finally gave up on me! Him Indoors and I almost had a disagreement about it over the phone, and we hardly ever do that!

I have test driven Lexus, Audi and Mercedes…doesn’t seem a lot but those were the makes I had focused on. The Mercedes guy was very helpful, letting me rock up and test drive on spec, but he blew it with his mildly patronising attitude about when would my husband be able to come in and see the car…yes, I want to discuss it and agree with Him, but the final decision is MINE! Luckily that attitude is on the way out. I won’t tell you the restraint I had to use when he tried to show me how to use their website too!!!!

SO, next week I take possession of my very first brand new car. Ever! I always said it made more sense to get mildly used ones, but the deal was just too good, and He agreed with me ( sensible chap). I will be able to collect our son from his second knee operation in The New Beast and drive him him home in comfort; Audrey (just trying he name out here) will look good on the drive when we have guests fro dinner that Saturday…yes, I AM that shallow, get over it! I just hope the trip to the supermarket won’t be too traumatic, the first time trying to park without my beloved parking camera! Well, you can’t have everything!

Just so long as I can get Radio 4 Extra on the DAB radio…

Wish me luck…


Car Update

I am getting more confused, not clearer-minded! I asking Him, on the way to the station this morning, what we had decided, and what did we do next…ie “when are you going to buy me the new car” (read that in spoilt brat voice!)

Then I got an email asking me if I was really certain, and why not look at the Lexus cars again!!!! ARRRGH!!!!

So I am booked in to look at both the RX 450 hybrid, and the new NX hybrid this afternoon. As it is disgusting weather it will be a good test for them….come to think of it, it was snowing when we first went out in Doris on a test drive!

Have you gathered by now I like to do things when I’ve decide, and not wait; Impulse Girl, that’s me! even at 55¾! For me it’s like buying houses…when you walk in, you KNOW! If Hubby had said on Saturday “we’ll have it” I’d have been fine…weeeelllll…

You see, I don’t want to have to wait for an engine to heat up (diesel) meaning you can’t do short trips if the weather is crap and I need something from the shop a mile away…stop yelling “Woose” at me! (incidentally, I can’t find the definition/spelling of this word!) I do care about the environment, and I do think the Hybrid is the way to go apart from totally electric, which a friend’s hubby is going for. i love driving, do quite a few miles each year, am short so love being high up…

oh heck! Let’s see what this afternoon’s test drives bring!

Laters, Dudes!


The BIG Question!



I am contemplating one of the biggest Questions I have been faced with for the last 10 years…

No,its not “is there Life after Death” or any of those REALLY big Questions! Its…

are you ready?…

DO I chose an Audi A6 Quatro or another Lexus RX as my next car?

What do you mean, ” so what?”? This is HUGE for me! We don’t change our cars very often, and I have had Doris for 10 years, and she and I have done over 118,000 miles together…oh, wait 13,000 of those were not with me! But you get my meaning. The car I decide to buy now will take us into retirement, hopefully into Grandparenthood, on golfing holidays, skiing holidays, and anything else I decide to try!

I managed to get Him Indoors over to the Audi garage to test drive an A4 yesterday, and we both decided it was not for us – I have been spoilt by my Lexus, which came with so many things as standard, and is very luxurious inside – well, she was, but after 10 years of school trips, dog trips, golf etc I am sure you can imagine the odd marks we have. He then asked to look at the A6, and we both loved it! I haven’t yet got Him to look at the new Lexus NX  and I have a feeling I never will. I think he is sold on The Audi A6! SO much so he is even contemplating buying a brand new car, which we NEVER DO!!!!

One of my main thoughts that is worrying me is diesel fuel. I have been hearing things about how it is not as good for the environment as “they” thought, and it may be taxed/phased out in the future. The Audi we would get would be diesel because of the miles I drive each year. I want to look at the hybrid/petrol fuel consumption of the Lexus regarding this new car.

One thing that He loved was the idea of having to service the Audi less than the Lexus. He is, of course and rightly, focusing on the cost-saving bits of the Audi compared with the Lexus.

The more I type about this the more I catch myself thinking Audi, and catching sight of the brochure just to my left…It has a better turning lock than the Lexus…

Hm! I think I’d better walk The Hound before the rain comes this afternoon, and think more about it as I tramp.


If you have any thoughts…let me know!


What was I about to say?

I sat down and logged on here with lots I wanted to say…it took time to get connected with this broadband link ( we live 3 miles form the exchange and the line goes through trees!) and now I can’t remember what I was going to type!!! This is happening more and more in my speech too – I have word blindness every now and then. The family think this is very funny, but it worries me.

I was looking at the wing mirror yesterday and couldn’t think what it was called…Do you ever have this?

I assume it is a bit to do with my age, but perhaps more to do with the lack of using my brain for socialising, or reading – I have been listening to Audiobooks more and more lately, especially as I need to tidy the house! This house is full of books of all sorts; most I have read but there are a few that I have bought, put to one side, and forgotten. I used to put them in a pile beside my bed, but then they got covered with the days’ detritus, so that didn’t work!

Well, today I am going to make sure I speak to friends, and after more tidying up, I WILL sit down and read a book…it may not be a great work of literature ( I have never read and Dickens…don’t hate me!) but at least my brain will be working1

So, until I remember what it was I was going to tell you … have a great…um..thingy…DAY!


L xIMG_0867

The Circle of Life

How have you been?

It has been a full four weeks of emotions here, with a Birth, a Death and a Marriage weaved into the usual meeting of strangers and friends.

It started with the birth of a beautiful girl to my husband’s youngest niece…what is that relationship with us called? Grand- niece? It was a lovely easy birth with her sister as her birth partner. We got to meet Ruby at the family wedding ,and I got my fill of couples…but I’m jumping ahead!

Then came that awful news from Ann about her terminal cancer.

The following week we went up to Hoylake for The Open, met up with old friends, met new ones. I played golf with some of the wives…we all survived! Hubby and I managed a couple of evening meals alone which was wonderful; we met up with his family briefly for a meal too.

The week went smoothly and we flew off to the South of France for a complete rest for Hubby, and some precious time alone together. It was a little bit of France we hadn’t explored right next to on ewe know well, so we could dip in and out of the different atmospheres as we wanted. It included a fab trip to Cannes Hermes shop to get Hubby’s birthday present of a pocket handkerchief for his suits..oh, ok, so I got a scarf too (Teehee!) and some perfume, but did you honestly think I could go in there & not?? I do relies I have a fab Hubby!!

Then home for a whirlwind week.

It began with a lovely meeting at Hampton Court with an old friend about to fly back to Australia. We mixed history with gossip and news, enjoyed the modern showings of historical figures and places, and caught up.

The following day I drove to Gloucester to say an official Goodbye to my school friend. I met up with our third wheel, Mary and her husband briefly before we found some of the few free seats in the church. It was wonderful how many folks’ lives Ann touched. Yes, it was sad, yes I had a good chat with old friends, but yes – it has brought up some huge questions for me about Faith, Spiritual life etc. I thought I had come to terms with Death etc, but no…a different blog perhaps.

Then Thursday Son and I drove back up to Liverpool for the Family Wedding! Our middle niece married her lovely man with her son as the ring bearer and her daughter one of the bridesmaids. Lorna looked so beautiful, and Scott was very handsome and ‘together’ – we were very impressed. I think they will have a long and happy life together.

As with all family meetings there are good bits and bad, news and gossip, but i file most of my time cuddling the new grand- niece, Ruby!! She is so small and bright! Already holding her head up at 4 weeks old!!! and her fingers and toes are so long! No, I’m not in a rush to be a grandmother, but it gave me a quick taste of it! Son, I can wait!

Now, life is getting back to normal. The piles of washing and ironing have diminished, the garden has been stared at crossly and will be dragged back into shape slowly but surely. Nutrition-wise I need to detox and get back to my healthy living…am off to the nutritionist in a min…eeek, I must get going!

SO folks. All life in a few moments. in the midst of death there is life, and in life there is death. There is always a renewal going on somewhere, to remind us that nothing lasts for ever, good or bad. SO I’m taking a deep great here, counting my blessings, allowing myself to feel both the pain and the joy of each day; and moving forward.

May your day be filled with blessings.