‘Twas the Night before Christmas

…and all through the house…

rampaged a panicking woman who realised that it was all too late!

Too late to turn her lard body into the lean fit skiing machine her husband had achieved…

Too late to fit into the ski clothes that fitted two years ago when the personal trainer had worked so hard on her…

Too late to sensibly say to her friend that she couldn’t go with her straight after the skiing trip….

Slowly the woman calmed down, made a list of what she had to do, realised she could do the important things, including supporting her friend, and still fulfil everyone’s expectations. it was all a matter of timing and prioritising.

Nothing could be done about the lack of fitness, but she knew what to do on the slopes, her son was a qualified instructor, and she could always do something else on the slopes ( like have a hot chocolate whilst taking pictures). She had plenty of time to try on the ski clothes, pack those that could be worn, substitute those that couldn’t and pack, pack a small suitcase for the couple of days with her friend afterwards, and most of the house was ready fro the guests arriving the day after that.

So what was the point in panicking? It was 5 am and that is the worst time for this sort of thing! She breathed, went downstairs to be greeted by her loving pets, fed and watered them, and then came back to bed with a mug of tea and wrote her blog…

SO, Dear Reader, I am wishing you a wonderful, Peaceful Christmas. Life is never as bad as I think when I sit and really think about it, and i hope you realise this too.

May your God bless you and keep you safe.

L x

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I am…

 

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Morning. I am starting the day with a little more force than usual.

I have fed the pets, everyone has been out and all have safely come in, and here I am chatting to you.

Why? I got woken at 4.20 this morning by a hot flush. Not unusual as I had had some Cadbury’s chocolate yesterday, and sugar is my trigger. So, I listened to an Audio Book whilst dozing until Midweek Motivation by Jayne M Cox came into my inbox as it does every Wednesday. here’s the link…http://us2.campaign-archive2.com/?u=2616f02d31b1e827414add1cb&id=417b5d6fd2&e=4227bc274b

This one is a Ted talk about Faking It Until It’s Real…something I do often on Twitter – now, stop yelling at me! I tweet happiness and positivity because who wants to read about a moping, sado?! I don’t consider it lying unless its lying to myself, and it makes me feel better, it really does! I Fake It!

So, when everyone started to wake up on Twitter etc I put on the light, my dressing gown, and came down here, and I have done my power stance…outside! Looking up at the stars, swilling my coconut oil in my mouth, loving the odd twinkling star, and amazed I can do that in November…but I am digressing!

Today I am going to fake being an organised, energetic, lively, thin person…those who know me will know at least one of those is not real. And I can hear Jayne already yelling at me! I CAN be those things, but I find it easy to slip into the mindset of the fat, lazy, detached, TV slob. Just being honest here – you can switch off anytime if you are bored

I USED to be the former, when I was younger, a working mum, and even after we moved to the country and I gave up work to look after the kids ( something I never regret!). I can be those things again, I just need the motivation – and I don’t think I’m alone here! It’s only going to come from me!

I even started to fill out the forms for these 2 wonder pills that make you lose stones in a month…mainly for skiing after Christmas…as they say you don’t lose energy etc. I will ask my nutritionist first ( a 24 year old beauty!) who will talk me out of it, at least I’m assuming she will…

Anyway, back to the Fake it to Make it thought…It has hit me at just the right time. My mind feels as if it is disintegrating, I forget words very easily, and listening to others at Art yesterday I realised I am wasting my life at the moment. One of the ladies, who was a high-powered school teacher, is taking an Open university course in the History of Art. What am I doing? Nothing!

SO…from today I am going to fake being an interesting, intelligent, engaged, organised, self-disciplined, woman who knows her own mind. It won’t hurt to drink a lot more water and eat less sugar which is half the problem right there! I used to be all these things, and as I am not about to pop my clogs any time soon, I WILL be again!

Another thought just comes to me as I get ready to sign off…talking to Hubby recently I said how I hate to be judged (my holiday cottage had its inspection on Monday – 4 stars again!) – I think I know who is my biggest Judge…me.

Go be fabulous, folks! You know you can!

Lx

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1st Drive

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I have done it…short and sweet, and I didn’t crash!

The knee felt strange and I was extra careful, no emergency stops required, and I loved getting out under my own steam.
However I have made the right decision about not driving to a friend 3/4hour away this afternoon to watch others swim. I would have loved to take her up on the offer of being driven but she would have had to leave her guests to get me home in time for the Sainsbury’s Food Drop I have arranged for tea time, and I would have felt awful…tho I would have loved the socialising!

But, there is also the fact I feel really strange… The effects of the pain killers I think, or the general anaesthetic. My friend who very kindly took me into Rye yesterday ( & is a radiographer!) said there is a theory that it takes 6months for the effects of a GA to work its way out of our systems…oh I hope not!!
I didn’t take any last night as I didn’t feel the need in the knee, and I slept really badly. When I take them I sleep well. A no brainer, I hear you say? Well, not for me…I know I have an addictive personality – that I can easily get hooked on something, not you to me!! (Tho I hope you do!) So I am very wary of getting reliant on the painkillers for sleep. I know it’s only been a week since The Op, but pills worry me, so there!

Anyway, I am “gently glowing” in this fabulous heat, and the animals are already flat out in the shade. So I’m off to do my knee exercises and then ice it…and any other bit I feel the need to ice!

Post op Thoughts on Recovery, Life and Husbands

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Today is Saturday. On Thursday I had an arthroscopy and a rip in my Mendthingy Cartilage mended. By Sunday evening I may have murdered my Husband! (not really…if he has died it wont be by my hand…I can’t reach!!)

So far I have learned that –
1. I should have insisted Hubby took the day after off from work;
2. I should have shopped better before the op;
3. I should have learned how to ask for help from Hubby more;
4. I should have taught him how to do the washing
5. I feel lousy and cross after a general anaesthetic!
6. Hubby can’t read my mind!

On the plus side after this I should be able to get back to jogging etc. Until I have my other knee done!

This is quite an eye opener for me.
I didn’t realise how little I ask for outright – help with things round the house, or could someone get me something from another room. Or even for friends to get some shopping for me…which they have. Do you do this? If you do, are you male or female? Are men better or not at getting the Other Half to do stuff?

I am so used to being the strong capable one on the surface that I have not trained myself, or Hubby, to put my physical needs first.

Now, if your are a regular reader to my blog and are now screaming at your screen that that is all I ever do, please forgive this perspective and message me; but from this side of the iPad I am finding it difficult to keep calm when asked about the simplest of things by my darling Old Man, stuff that I do every day and take for granted that we all know how to do – the shopping, washing, checking there is water in the dog’s bowl…

So the main thing I am learning is both of us need to have patience and ask for exactly what we need…um, can I have another mug of tea please? and whilst you’re in the kitchen…hello? Anybody there???

Start you week with…

20120912-170753.jpgHow did you start your week? I took a bike ride…well, after a mug of tea, yoga and breakfast of course!

It is all part of the fitter me, but is dependant on my knees.

 

My route is uphill to the village shop, where a chat is a must, then this week I decided to be adventurous and take a detour. I turned left instead of going straight home…Its a lane I have been down before but only in the car…it all looks very different from a saddle, believe me!

For a start its not as flat as I remember! but it is a lovely lane with folks to call ‘Morning” to. they all replied, which was rather heart-warming.

Then back onto the main road and a chat with neighbours about drives etc (as you do), and a down hill “WEEEEEE” ( that’s free-wheeling with legs stuck out) and back to a mug of tea and cloud contemplation…

Now, is it me or do these modern clouds have less ‘pictures’ in them? Is it that I am loosing my Inner Child’s Eye? Oh I do hope not! How about you? When was the last time you lay on the grass and watched the clouds drift by? And don’t yell that you have no time! Get in touch with your own ‘Little Lizzie’ and see what you can see, go on.

Right, now I’m going to have a go at embedding a song for this blog…can you guess what it is before you press the thingie to listen? (the picture is a bit of a give-away to those of us of a certain age!)

Have a fab week!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9WmhMKWt8DI

It’s all gone Pete Tong!

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It’s confession time…or will be when Adam the trainer comes back on Thursday!!!

Actually, I won’t have to confess as he will be able to see with one look!!! so here goes my confession…

“Oh Trainer, I have eaten things I should not have, and have left undone the training I should have done, and there is more weight on me.”

Oh boy, is there more weight! A very heavy half a stone has landed on me, and do I feel it!!! I have a fuzzy head, my wheezing is coming back, my joints ache…and its all my own fault!!!

Why have I done this?? I am finding excuses for not exercising every day, and the food is piling up on my plate again. The alcohol is back too.

I am not on holiday any more, so all I can think is the reaction to Son’s leaving home has thrown me back to the Old Liz mode, and I am finding it difficult to fight back.

I am cross with myself as today I go to the hospital for a pre-op check-up ( knee op on 29th August) and had hoped to be nearer the 13stone mark than back over the 14!!! Perhaps the op coming up is also in my mind, thinking
“well, what’s the point if I wont be able to do much after that for a while?”

STOP THINKING LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!

So, feel free to yell at me as hopefully I will be doing it to me too!
Gulp, I’ve just thought how disappointed Adam The Trainer will be….

Is there time to run away????

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Loosing it!

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It’s Thursday again…and I’m not in the mood…again! I have lost that loving feeling regarding exercising!!
This is because I am finding it more difficult to lose weight without the jogging. No, lets face facts… I am also eating more, and more of the “bad” stuff. You know what I mean…yep, SWEETS!! And I’m exercising far. far less! I’ve lost the oomph, the incentive, the …oh what’s the word? You know what I mean tho, don’t you?
And in it’s place I am buying more “stuff”!!! Replacement activity? Oh who knows, I’m just at a loss as to how to change back to that bouncy, go-getting gal of late last year.

I keep thinking of buying a bike. Again! I used to have one when we lived in a flatter region, and it took Hubby nagging to get me to use it! Now I am thinking of cycling to the local shop to get the paper rather than using the car for such a short journey. ( it’s just over 1.5 miles away with a hill involved…a v small one!)
What’s stopping me? Apart from the price of the bike? Well, my knees I suppose. I’m booked in for an op on the right one at the end of August, and I have yet to ask the consultant what he thinks of cycling as an alternative to running. I will ask Adam the PT today what he thinks.

Actually I think Adam will need to give me a good talking to! I know that I have reached the plateau that folks do, and I have to find the mental capacity to get me over it and down the next 2 stone! It is tougher this time round!! ( can you see me whaling and gnashing my teeth in anguish? No, me neither!)

Even the yoga is tailing off!! After buying the blocks, strap & Yogatoes too! Yogatoes

So you see I am back to Slob Mentality!! Please can you send ideas for getting me back on track? You’d think having Summer here might have helped…hahaha! No, sorry, got the giggles at the thought that this is Summer!! Ah! Perhaps I am missing the sun!

On that thought I shall rise and go do something…what? No, I don’t know what either, but getting up is a good start!

May your day be full of “get up and go” folks!

Lx

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A New String To My Bow

Yoga imagesLast night I went to my first Yoga class.

 

I had been training with Adam at lunchtime so was already limbered up. I was looking forward to some gentle stretches and perhaps some meditation…I really didn’t know what to expect. All I knew was that I wasn’t going to be doing any handstands!

We soon settled down onto our mats and I began to realise this was certainly not  beginners course! Lisa had warned me, but you know what its like..in one ear, you nod, and it flows straight out the other! Oh Boy!

First off, its a long time since I sat cross legged on the floor. Thankfully we could roll up our rug and sit up on that to help the posture. Some, including the teacher Lisa, had little blocks to sit on…yep, I will be getting one of those if I survive the course!

Then we were taught to slow and regulate our breathing, visualising a wave going down from our navel to the coxics as we breathed in, and back up to our heart as we breathed out for a count of four each way. This was easier!

Next we were introduced to the chant of Om and how to do it, and what to visualise or rather where the sound should come from as we said all three parts of the word Om – it starts at the bottom and goes up into your brain…it all makes sense when you are doing it!

Then the stretches/exercises/poses started. I am just so glad I couldn’t see myself trying these! The Downward Dog was relatively easy, but with my big tum lunging into the Warrior was a little tricky. I managed with a few hops. I began to sweat with the effort!! Some of the poses we held for quite a while and the thighs began to protest…the knees were beginning to form a union too and I could feel the odd strike being planned in certain regions of the old body. However, I struggled on and I don’t think I made too bad a job of it – not the most elegant in the room I am sure, but that wasn’t the point of going, now was it? No!

We even did the bridge pose- you know, the one we all can do as little kids when we go on all fours inside out/upside down..you know the one, going from lying on your back up onto your hands and feet…I could do the getting the bum and back off the floor, but it will take much time and weight loss before I can do it properly.

At one point there was a chance to go from all fours into a handstand, but lets face it I can’t see me EVER managing that!…however, I remember telling Adam that I didn’t run when I first met him, so perhaps I had better not say those things!

Eventually we were told to get comfy with rugs over us and the relaxation started…bliss!! (The lady next to me started snoring at one point!) I started to feel a smile developing on my face – and I’m pretty sure my body was smiling too. It was tremendously peaceful, and with some practice I am sure I will be able to move back into the light as were were supposed to see ourselves doing.

And then it was all over. one and a half hours had gone and I was feeling..well, I knew I had worked hard, but I also felt wonderful! And I hadn’t made any embarrassing body noises either!!! you know what I mean!

To be honest I had thought Yoga was more relaxation than trying to grasp bits of my anatomy with the opposite hand that hadn’t been designed to get any where near it!!! Perhaps I would be better off in a beginners class, but I have emailed the teacher and asked if it might be better for me to start with a few one-to-one sessions first, so that I can work into the poses, not damage the knees, and get to grips with the spiritual side behind the yoga. the cynics out there will be yelling of course she is going to say yes to those as they are more expensive, but I am lucky I can do this, and I do want to be able to do it right and keep on doing it!

Today I feel much lighter of emotion …going away for a few days with hubby, in the fresh air and playing golf in the sun (Scotland) certainly helped, but I am sure the yoga also has helped, and I want to be able to add it to my quiver of stuff I CAN do.

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Lx

Yoga….where?

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Morning World, how are you feeling?

I have decided I want to add another string to my bow of living a healthier life, and Yoga has always intrigued me…
Why haven’t I don’t it before, I hear you ask ( well, just pretend you did!). I have dabbled at school, with the odd class, but now I feel it’s time to take it seriously. I know there is a yoga centre on the way to Battle which I must contact, but also I have asked Adam the trainer to ask his teacher if she does classes nearer to here.

I am constrained a little on the days I can learn it..I must get back to golf, back to going up to London regularly to see more of Hubby,can’t stop training… So, with only 7days in the week, and really only 5 I can use without cutting into the Weekend, Monday night or Thursday night ( if I can move after training!) look to be the best bet.

I have been watching Hubby managing to bend his leg up under his body whilst stretching out the other one and all flat on the floor and feel I really ought to be able to do the same! Ok, so there is a load less of him than me, but I have always thought I was more flexible…Hm, an element of competition creeping in here? Better watch that! Hold on whilst I just check I can …reach…my …toes…Yes! Phew! Ok, so on with the search!

I love starting the new week with a new “thing” to achieve! I’ll keep you posted on whether I find what I’m looking for.
In the meantime, have a FAB week!

Lx

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Oh, Buck Up!

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I am giving myself a good talking to today! “Buck Up” being the nice way to put it!!

Yesterday the “old Liz” reared her ugly head… And I sat at the kitchen table, and ATE! I felt sorry for myself, just because my knees hurt when I exercise/walk/go to sleep. I feel sluggish, and down.

Now, to be kind to myself it might be something to do with the powerful painkillers and the stomach pills to counter the bad effect the pain killers have on my tummy. These mean my insides are in shock, and not working as they should (nuff said, don’t panic!) and I seem to be bloating.

However, all this doesn’t mean I should give up on how much I have achieved so far!! It does NOT mean I can’t train in some form or another! Ok, so nothing gives me the “high” of jogging then training, but it just means I have to find a different way of doing it; and that is why I have a personal trainer!!

Ok, so there have been a few setbacks in other areas…the boiler getting thru £750 worth of oil in a month, the dog bringing home a dead lamb ( it was already dead we think), the cottage loo mysteriously leaking at the base then stopping ( my mother haunting us?) BUT I am so lucky in that I have earned the money to pay for more oil; the dog is now on the lead and will never be allowed out alone again; the loo seems ok so I don’t need a new one!; the boiler is now fixed so the cottage guests are warm with hot water when they want it.

Counting my blessings here as hard as I can, folks! And boy, do I have blessings!!
And my men keep telling me not to worry about things in the future as they may never happen.

So, I await Adam telling me new training routines to keep up the weight loss.
I WILL stop the grazing of food by not sitting at the kitchen table for hours on end!
The weather is getting better so I will be able to get into the garden and pretend to know what I’m doing there.
Art starts again today so I can try something new there.
I have new windows so no more drafts.

Far more important that all those “things” are…
I am loved and can love.
I am alive and can breath.
I can move and achieve.

So my thought for today will be …

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Hugs to all of you and thanks for letting me main to you. Feel free to kick me up the backside!

Lx

Maybe Next Time

20121029-055943.jpgBad news folks – my run is off due to knee trouble.

Just before skiing, back in January, I twisted/pulled my knee but still managed to ski thanks to strapping and ibuprofen gel. Since then it has always hurt when jogging and working out.

Then last week after training i could hardly walk and i have been in pain since. so much so I could hardly walk up to 3.8 mph on the treadmill on Thursday.

SO I drove to the doc”s who has referred me t a specialist next Wednesday. I have seen this guy before, and he is good. I just hope he can get it going pain free soon! there is a suggestion of tor cartilage – though being new to running I don’t know how bad this can be.

In the meantime Adam is going to have to alter my workouts to protect the knees whilst keeping the metabolism going. This week he had me boxing, throwing the medicine ball like a basket ball – it is soooo not like a basket ball!! AND I was never that good at netball in the first place!!!! At the end he had me planking on elbows and toes for 3 x 60 seconds.

Actually I was secretly pleased at how well I did on the planking, but please don’t tell him!

Next week we will use the bosu, so that should be fun!

In the long run (oh, so bad!) I am really hoping I will be fit enough for a 5k by the end of the summer (if we have one). I cant believe I actually miss jogging and how it makes me feel when it stops! It has really helped with the weight and the depression. Even my blood pressure is down! Wednesday I will have a non-fasting blood test to see if my cholesterol is down too…Woohoo!

In the mean time, my thoughts and prayers go out to those caught in the Boston Bombing; and to those running in the London Marathon this Sunday.

Lx

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Almost there

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Week 26 and I am almost at the 3stone loss mark! Woohoo!
Only 3lbs to go, but it’s getting harder now without the running. I am down to 1lb loss per week, but that’s ok. I am not having to starve myself, and Adam doesn’t think I am missing out on anything…I’m thinking alcohol, chocolate…but actually I have gone off wine!!! (Note I do not mention chocolate; my taste buds aren’t that mad.) Really, all I’m doing is eating sensibly and keeping the diary..oh, and working out.

Mind you, all this snow has left me feeling like hibernating again! The only warm room in this house is the study when the fire is lit, and the temptation to sit under a rug by it and read is huge!

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Son and I had such fun getting through all this and more yesterday…I even had to body surf over most of this particular drift as it was up above my bum!! You can imagine the laughter and screams from both me and him! Not helped by the dog coming and lying next to me as he was a bit worried!

So, training again today so long as Adam can get here, and I bet it will be a toughie! I managed 10mins jog at 4pmh on Monday so I’m hoping this means I can get back to running properly soon, building up to it. I have been rather gentle on myself training on my own, and as it’s going to get cold again later this week and next I need to get going!

THE RUN
This has been booked for June 2nd, did I tell you?? And I’m out the night before!! Eeeek!

Right, I’m off to get some housework done before Adam arrives.

L