Do you have an Itinerary?

As the year draws to a close Hubby and I have at last had a chance to look at next year’s dates…

Hubby is going to be Captain of The Oxford & Cambridge Golf Society, hereafter referred to as The Society  – actually I think that’s how everyone in golf refers to it! This is a 2 year stint, and one he is really looking forward to. He played for Oxford but will need to be impartial from a while, if possible…I don’t think I have to be tho!

So, after the last of our golfing guests left on Sunday hubby and I sat down with his blackberry and noted his Golf Itinerary for next year as far as he as it…

We got as far as September, and I began to feel a little sad.  Golf Widdow has not really been how I have thought of myself, and normally I am doing other things; but this time I realised I have nothing in my Itinerary yet! A few of the dates also include me, which is nice, but on the whole wives are not really included.

So, instead of letting the lonely feelings begin to drown me I am determined to fill my year and myself! I shall spend more time with Hubby during the week ( dog and holiday cottage willing!), and then make sure I am going away, seeing friends, and doing more photograph, art etc…

This sounds a bit selfish when I read it back, but actually its self-preservation, as well as marriage-preservation! I want the most out of this life now that there is less in front of me than behind, and I want to be happy and fulfilled. If I am then I will be a better companion for Hubby when we are together, and that in turn will make me happy!

So, after this I will be booking self into a photography course, perhaps making plans with friends who I will see this afternoon, and I definitely will do more entertaining!!!

Right World, be warned!

L x

Starting Again

This morning, feeling that suddenly the Universe has dumped a whole lot of age on my body (ok, I mean I’ve put on a load of weight & haven’t moved enough recently – the effects are the same!), I actually managed to do a yoga practice.

After a mediation to start with I creakingly got going, bending further and further with each movement. The knees complained a bit, my hip thought some of it wasn’t fun, and my back cracked when I got down for some bridge work. The Corpse pose wasn’t perfect as my mind wouldn’t shut up but we made it through to my final mediation of Om…

You know that moment when everything aligns, your mind stills, your heart slows, and the vibrations from the sound you make fill you up? ….It was one of the best ones I’ve ever managed! I couldn’t stop!! Again and again I felt myself fill up with vibration, sound and then laughter…the only reason i stopped was I wanted to laugh out loud – so I did! A few tears came with the laughter, which was great; a sense of release and peace came then.

I am very grateful for that.

SO, after breakfast I signed up to Curvy Yoga for a year of monthly practices, and (once I get my password right (!) ) look forward to joining in with other curvy yoga folk.

Right, am now feeling the chill from sitting still so will get up and get moving.

Have a great day, Namaste

L x

Another Loss

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Lala Cat looking at me whilst her brother snores on

I know this is nothingcompared with the loss of lives over the weekend, all round the World, but this morning I found one of our cats dead outside the front door. She was our Daughter’s cat, Lara ( named after Lara Croft), over 17 years old, and rather smelly & scrawny. She didn’t like many people, stalking my husband for years before deciding to ignore any male in the house, hiding from strangers, but loving to fall asleep on my lap in my bouncy chair and purr like you have never heard! We had to turn the TV volume up once she got going. I called her Lala Cat.

Sadly it may have been either my husband or I who might have hit her this morning on our way out to the station…I really hope not. I am hoping she died first, or it was the milkman…anything else than thinking I killed her.  Don’t get me wrong, I am not normally sentimental about animals, and don’t believe in paying vets a fortune to prolong agony just so the human can feel they have done all they can…I can never forget our daughter saying that if she had been an animal we would have had her put to sleep gracefully and painlessly when she was in agony with her cancer.

But now, ( yes, I know I shouldn’t start a sentence with but!!) I am the only female soul in the house. The fact that I have registered this shows that it matters to me, ‘tho it shouldn’t. It is another thread physically broken with our daughter. Perhaps I’m not as “healed” as I think, as I’ve PRIDED myself in being.

Then the little practical voice that has my mother’s tone says…”For goodness’ sake, it was only a cat! Worse things are happening elsewhere, and life goes on. Now pull yourself together and go do the shopping…but have a shower first!” “And p
ut some make-up on!” (see, even my inner voice has bad grammar).

SO, up for a shower, on with the “face”, and lets see what the rest of the day brings. It can only get better!

Lx

 

 

Love Not Hate

I know the Internet is full of blogs and posts telling the rest of us that all this hate for others is only producing more bloodshed and that Love conquers all…but obviously the wrong people are reading them, and those who are causing all the bloodshed don’t bother to read our positive messages.

They never will.

Their minds are closed to sunshine, thinking their way is the only way. They may be doing all that they can through fear for the loss of a way of life, loss of beliefs, loss of power. Some of it comes across as the fear of the rise of Women, or the loss of power from the Men…I’m not a feminist, but rather a believer in everyone being equal. The people who are fighting against that are using religion as their excuse. They seem to be basing their ideas on life lived many hundreds of years ago…Life may have been simpler then, but we cannot live in the past.

This does not mean we have to get rid of all of our beliefs, our “rules” for living, but we do need to adapt…after all that is the law of survival. Each religion needs to grow with the World, adapting and adopting as they go to provide a firm base for those who want to live according to those beliefs.

None of these should include the killing of anyone else for the sake of that religion!!! I can’t believe there is any god anywhere who would think the taking of life is a good thing! God would surly regard every life as sacred. Do not all religions believe God created life and us? I honestly don’t know as I have not studied them; but having turned away from organised religion several years ago I still believe in a benevolent Being/Power/Energy who is behind Life… that being is, I believe it is something that would abhor this fighting in It’s name.

Be honest Folks! The reason you are killing each other is because you want the Power over others.

DON’T BLAME GOD

Ok, that’s just my view, and I hope that Love Will Conquer All!

Lx