Amazing week so far!

This has been an amazing week, and there is more to come!!

On Monday I spent the whole day trying to learn how to put pictures and videos on this site….yes, I know, I failed on the video front, but only cos I ran out of time! I did manage to put a video on YouTube, so now I just have to find how to link them (if I get the courage to do any more!) to here.

By the end of the day I was exhausted! How you guys manage to spend all day doing it, or working at a computer all day, I don’t know! I’m not used to it! Of course having a messy desk probably doesn’t help.

You notice I have not typed in a link to the video here! I was horrified at the result. See my other blog as to why! The rest of the week has resored myconfidence tho!

Tuesday was art, and I really felt I made a good start at last! I will put a pic up at a later date, or an album or whatever of my stuff. It is not fab but I am pleased that I have achieved something I feel is good enough to frame, and that is what it is all about!

Then came Wednesday!!!

OMW…oh my word, folks! Not on my way!

First I went to the local hospital to have my nose probed! It wasn’t my idea, believe me! Apparently I snore..no, I don’t believe it either! Oh, we’ll, ok, maybe a little…no pictures broken yet tho! I had to fill in forms that asked me questions I couldn’t answer (school exams sprang to mind!) about where I snore from – nose or mouth! Honestly! How do I know? I’m asleep at the time!! Then the doc looked up my nostrils, brave man! He then sprayed a disgusting-tasting anasthetic up one and put a relatively thin long camera up said passage and mad eme make faces and suffocatso whilst he watched. Don’t think he’ll sell many of those DVDs! Ugh!

The upshot is I am booked in to the sleep clinic next wee. This means I spend the night in a ward with a load of other snorers and they monitor how badly I sleep.

Now, I am with you…it is obvious that I will not sleep well in a strange place surrounded by strangers! At least I am taking my teddy! Yes, I sleep with a teddy, stop laughing! There are quite a lot of us adults who do! To be accurate it is a rabbit….stuffed toy given to my daughter but she never took to him so I gave him home in my bed! I will blog about it next week!

Then came one of the best 3 hours ever! I went to meet one of my twitter friends! Brave of both of us as our respective sons had warned us the other could be a nutter etc! I am so glad we took no notice! It is wonderful as well as mildly weird when you meet someone you instantly click with! From our first big hug to the last goodbye hug we were laughing…my ribs really ache today! We have so much in common, including middle names! Gadgets, books, photography, mothers dying in the same year…we seemed to have covered so much between the laughter, giggles, etc. She  is an amazing woman, instal,warm and welcoming. A bit of me was in awe at what she has achieved in her life -a huge bit!  And there am I exhausted by just one day of working on the computer!

It was a shame I had to drag myself away and hit the hairdressers, but sooo needed! That gave me a small break before dashing home and then up to London to see my Old Man.

And that is not all! Tomorrow I will meet a whole new lot of twitter friends at The Breakfast Club Live event!! Yes, of course there will be a blog about that! And pics etc on the club website too I expect.

Mow I have to find out why the fridge keeps turning itself off! Back to themundane folks, but someone has to!

Thanks for reading, and I’ll see you later.

be kind to yourselves, and have fun!

L xx

Video blog or written blog?

I have spent most of the day so far learning how to video myself and how to upload it to this blog…..not to mention keeping my little finger away from the ‘publish’ button on iPad before I am ready!

I have learned a huge amount, and not necessarily about the technology!

  • I don’t look like that!
  • I don’t sound like that!
  • I have scary eyes when opening them wide!
  • My hands are a law unto themselves
  • My eyes keep wandering!

OK, that’s enough! You get the picture, I am not a happy bunny about seeing myself on the screen. I am far more vain than I realised, or to put it another way...who is that middle-aged fat woman?????

As Dinah Liversidge reminded me on Twitter, we don’t see ourselves as others do…Gosh, I hope she’s right, otherwise after Friday Breakfast Club Live I will be down to the odd few followers who don’t come!!!

In my mind and in my heart I am still about 30, with a fairly good body and lovely hair. What I saw was a cross between my mother (of course!) and the old Dawn French with a very weak high voice, and a very very odd mouth!

What has worried me is whether I do this to others? Do I look at them and make a mental judgement? I REALLY hope not!!! I have always said the pages are far more interesting than the book cover…

So, have I been kidding myself? I am sure there are those out there who know the biological and psychological reasoning behind all of this; why we do not see what others see. I only know that my first viewing of myself knocked my confidence rather.

But I must remind myself that looks aren’t everything… I used to get on rather well on the telephone with clients when in telesales; people seem to like my tweets and follow; and I have not had to overcome any facial problems.

In fact, Lass, you have been very lucky, so stop feeling so sorry for yourself, and get on with it!

So, I will continue to practice the videos, and find the easiest way to put them on the blog. I will not spend too much time worrying about how I look…there’s not much I can do about the main bits, apart from tarting them up with make up and hair spray anyway! And I will give you lots more credit than I am doing! If you were the type of people who judged folks on their looks alone I don’t think you’d be following me, now would you?

so on with the typing practice!

L xx

Aren’t People Fab!

YES THEY ARE!!!

This morning was one of those Monday morning jobs…due to rail works between Hastings and Ashford every Monday morning for the next 8 weeks or so, Hubby and I will be driving to Ashford International so he can whizz up to London.

Now, normally I don’t begrudge him anything like this. It means no fewer mins in bed, and gets him into the office when he wants…very important that! It sets him up for the week slogging at his desk. Actually, I think he is one of the few that loves their jobs so he’s a very lucky bunny!

However! As you will grow to lear through my blogs my mornings are very important to me for one special reason….The Breakfast Club on Twitter! This was started by a wonderful lady, Jayne,and developed with another fab lady, Dinah, into a great way to start your weekday. As soon as I know it’s ok I’ll put a link to their web page so you can find out all about it. In the meantime why not follow and join in 6.45-8am each weekday on twitter, check out #thebreakfastclub.

This is a club where positivity, hugs, and virtual mugs are on offer to help get us going. I am very honoured to be one of The Trolly Dollies, along with Jayne, Dinah and Lisa, which means I hand out hugs and mugs from my supercharged, sky blue pink trolly with white spots and heated seat! Occasionally I might just hand out porridge, or pain au chocolate, depending on what the trolly produces that day! I really enjoy the banter, hearings about folks’ days, their plans, and generally connection with others.

This morning I I attempted to do my trolly service whilst Hubby drove to Ashford….that bit worked well, I think. I was so engrossed that I missed a near accident with a lorry and car in front of us…probably a good thing as I then didn’t shreek, clasp hubby’s arm and generally panic! So I think he was quite pleased! We got to the station and said goodbye, he sweetly a rapping a multi-coloured scarf I knitted him for Christmas round his well dressed neck. I then drove to a nearby supermarket carpark to safely continue my trolly duties.

All good so far

It was a beautiful sunrise, the chat flowed, mugs and hugs exchanged, jokes completely flying over my head…for a change I hope! Then I popped the engine on for a few minutes to reheat the car and me, and switched off again.

Just before 8am I thought I’d better start wending my way home to Buddy the dog and the two cats who, let’s face it, wouldn’t have noticed my absence!(the cats that is, Buddy always knwos where I am, it’s a sympatico thing!)  I turned the ignition. Click. I turned it again. Click. “oh s..t,” I exclaimed..yep, defiately exclaimed that out loud! I tweeted how stupid I’d been and looked around the carpark at the few other cars there. Aha! Behind me was a girl in a car looking at her phone. Over I rushed and asked her if she had any jump less and time to give me a start. Alas, it was a hire car and they don’t have them! I looked around again. Over in another part I spotted a chap in an Environmental Agency truck, and dashed towards him (poor chap must have panicked at the sight of mad woman first thing in the morning!).

He and his mate (might have been his boss, gulp) immediately drove the truck round so that our batteries were in reach of each other, and they jumped me…started the car I mean!!!!  I was mobile again! Actually I rather think I got a mild telling off from the one who seemed boss-like for stopping to check emails! Cheek! but I can forgive him and was very prolific in my thanks…but not creepy! Well, I hope not!!!

So off I went, driving back towards Hastings, with Chris Evans and his wonderful choice of music, laughter with Moira Stewart etc on the radio and the most glorious, clear sunny morning outside. Spirits were high!

When I next looked a my iPad and twitter timeline I saw that two of the breakfast club folk had been ready and willing to come and help me out! In fact one of them was already out and heading towards where I had been to give me a jump start!! I was overwhelmed at the thought that these two strangers would go out of their way to find another stranger and help her out! I say ‘strangers’ as we have not met in Real Life, but we have chatted on twitter, communicated, linked.

That, folks, is what I love about people! We may fight eachother over land, religion, beliefs, oil, gas and other “stuff” but when it comes to helping eachother People Are Fab!

My thanks to you two, and I hope to meet you soon in RL to say it to your face.

PS. I have just realised (oh so late!) that I wasn’t going to tell Hubby about this! Oh well, this will be a good indication of whether he reads my blog or not!! Oh, I feel a whole new blog on that subject coming on…

Take care of your selves, and be kind to each other!

Lxx

 

Frustration!

GRRRRRR.…I am trying to do this new blog including photographs from iPhoto, and unfortunately the drag and drop system keeps telling me the pics are too big to be dropped in! Due to my lack of knowledge I can’t think how to make the pics smaller, or whatever I need to do to include them, hence the GGGGGGrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!

I have to say it was easier in Posterous.com!!..oh now that’s a thought! Can I copy something from a posterous site and then print it here? If so there are a couple of blog entries I would really like to include on this site!

Hold on…how did I include the other pics on my first blogs here? Ah, they were taken on my phone, not the camera!. Still I ought to be able to figure this one out…why should you be deprived of what might be a good thing?

This is not working, but I am finding other things out..still not good enough tho!!!!

OK, enough for now. I shall try again another day. Then I’ll have fun trying to upload a video blog! OMG,as they say, I have brain ache!!!!

If there is a techno whizz out there, please put me out of my misery! On the other hand I might just email our host!!

Bye for now, I’ll keep you posted.

Lxx

Read The Instructions!

Are you one of those people who opens a gadget or an Ikea box or Lego box, and dives straight in? Yep, me too, and I have done it with this site! Can you tell? I truly hope not to be honest..and perhaps I shouldn’t be admitting to all of this in public!

When I first downloaded WordPress I just went straight to the Dashboard site and followed some of the instructions there. I suspect I deleted a few things I shouldn’t have done..text boxes, menus, things like that. I had a picture in my head of how it would all look in a few seconds of my usual fiddling…

Now, the present result is not all that bad to my mind, but there are things missing which I would like to put down the side to the left, and at the bottom…See? Can you guess what?

Well, down the bottom there are no links to Twitter, Facebook, somewhere for you to tick, the number of folks who have looked at this…not a bad thing perhaps if it stays on zero!

And on the side I would like links to Teenage Cancer Trust, The Breakfast Club and a few people I would like you to meet..

(I can already hear the purists among you yelling at me for starting the last paragraph with ‘And’. I have not worked out the paragraphing yet, ok?! AND this is not an English exam, thank goodness!!!)

I am admitting that I need help and have called in an expert to have a deco and give me some guidance…and yes, she is of a different generation, yes younger as if you need to ask! But I am not proud, and if she can help me to do all that I want with this site you will thank me in the end!…those of you who stick it out with me, that is!

On a serious note, and yes, there will be a few of those, I suspect all of this shows you how I live my life. There is NO Instruction Sheet on how to live the perfect life (and who would read it if there was?). We have to have a fiddle around with the bits and pieces, trying to fit all the strange shapes together as best we can. It is obvious when the pieces don’t fit, and no amount of banging will make them! I have been so fortunate that those pieces have been very, very few, and hope that all my pieces will fit. My family has never come with an instruction sheet, which I am sure my hubby would agree with, especially me, but over the years we have written our own. Like this page it needs editing every now and then to get it right, and we will only know we have succeeded when we are sitting on the proverbial porch in our old age looking back on it all.

I dont think having a Life instruction Sheet would make our lives any better really. It is the fiddling and editing that makes it all so rich. Some rules and guidelines in certain cases do help, and it is good that there are those out there to help us! You know who you are, and I thank you will all my heart!

If there is another life after this one, I wonder if it comes with an instruction sheet? Somehow I am hoping not!

PS: 14th Jan… Hubby has just been forced to look at this site…the result? My spellings have been checked and corrected, thank you Hubby! See…good job I didn’t take up teaching, tho I wonder if anyone would notice these days! …He Would! and is looking over my shoulder as I type…perhaps typing lessons might be in order!

Take care,

L x

Depression

I have just been reading about Andrew Flintoff and other sportsmen admitting to having suffered from depression.

I take my hat off to them all for speaking out about it. It was only this summer that I was able to admit that I was depressed… Not hugely, but enough to make life difficult for me and those nearest and dearest. I didn’t mind about the thought of dying. In fact I was looking forward to it! No, I wouldn’t have done anything about it, but I was rather fascinated by it all and felt that everyone would get on much better without me. My darling boys (hubby and son) were very quick to point that what rubbish that was! However it was not until the doctor told me he thought I was depressed that I really took it on board…after all, I am the strong one, I don’t get down, I hold things together! TOSH!

At the time I had just found Jayne M Cox, The Body Image Expert, on Twitter and was talking to her about my weight. When I told her what the doctor had said she was so pleased. We talked and talked and at last, just by admitting it, I felt a huge weight lifting off my shoulders, and I was able to move forward and away from the depression.

Isn’t it sad that these wonderful sportsmen who have opened up felt they had to keep silent about it to begin with! Surely the more we speak about it, the more we can find out about it, and hopefully the more people can be helped!

Our mental health is so important whoever we are. So I hope you are looking after yours!

Big hugs

L xx

First Blog on my site!

YESSS!!! can’t believe I managed to get ths site up and running! I have been blogging at Posterous.com up to now, so bare with me as I get used to these wonderful changes!

I am also going to have to learn how to post here from my iPad as I tend to post blogs wherever I am!

Also how to include a pic! i have so many i would like to share, and as we goa long you will discover that I love pictures of my local beach…very claming and soothing. It is where I go when i feel the need to recharge the soul, get over something, or just for the sheer enjoyment of it all!

Here should be a pic of said beach…nope, but it was above said beach!

I’ll get there folks!Just have a little patience! There!!!

Now, that’s all for the moment…just a little taster of me and my life.

if you want more on a daily basis why not follow me on twitter.. @thebisson and join in the fun of #thebreakfastclub 6.45-8am every weekday. or discover more about it on bit.ly/tpJvhc

Thanks for reading this first blog, and hope to see you soon!

Lx

Peace, perfect peace

Hello world!

Who would have thought that 2012 would see me with a web site?

Well, me actually! (of course) Somehow this year seems to be starting on such a positive vibe! This year feels that it is going to be the one that sees so much change both in the World and in my life.

Am I being very egotistical having my own site? A bit, surely! But it is also to promote my holiday cottage….see Menu above for the link.

One reason for doing all of this is to keep the old brain going!

Another is I hate to be left out of things!

The third is I used to be the one my friends turned to when PCs were first coming into our homes. I couldn’t and still can’t write programmes or anything brilliant like that; but through sheer fiddleing I would find out how to send emails, surf the net ect, and occasionallty they would ask me how to do something…all grist for the ego!

Now I feel I am in danger of being left behind by the likes of my 9 year old neice, who can probably work out how to do all of this whilst in her sleep! And I don’t like it!!

So lets see what this ol’ bird can do, shall we? Who said ‘no’!

 

bfn

Lx